Complaining.

Its been a few days, but i'm back. With tons of emotions, that are all over the place.
I mean I guess just when I feel like things are all falling back into place slowly, something happens to make me think differently. I know I have an attitude with my grandma and mom, and its somthing that i'm
conciously working on, and putting effort too. But theres only so much negativity that I can take until I just say 'well, you think i'm never gonna change anyway so why try'. Thats whats going thru my head right now.
My mom was down at the neighbors, and my sisters kept running down there, and me and bubba were outside and she comes storming down the road. (Worse thing about having siblings; when they mess up, its your fault too.) So she goes "Everyone in your rooms now, no dinner, im done". Like shes never home anyway, to spend time with us, and when she is, she complains the whole time mostly. I love her to death, and if i ever told her any of this she would resent me. But its how I feel. Then my grandma always wants to run away to Deborahs. So its basically me. I mean they do a lot, dont get me wrong. I just don't feel like I live in a normal household. One that eats dinner before 10 o'clock at night. One that spends time together. But God gave me this one for a reason, and there are good parts, don't get me wrong. Its almost time for me to start my own family anyways. Although the boyfriend situation isnt going to well. WOW. Homeschool sucks because i'm falling behind. But it'll all work out I guess. Destiny has a cheer meeting tomorrow night, hopefully we make it to that. I need to clean my room, but its soooo messy, i dont know where to start. Well lovely people that read my complaining, thank you!!!!! Gonna sign off though because 16 and Pregnant Reunion comes on again tonight, and I have yet to see the whole thing. Goodnight. Probably gonna blog tomorrow.

~Tiff.