Sometimes.

I get so overwhelmed sometimes. With dad being in prision, being over weight, having to worry if my grandma is gonna leave this family for her stupid gf, and if my mom will be mad at me. I guess sometimes I just wanna crawl into a cave, and stay there until all the drama goes away. Honestly, I do try and be someone that i'm not. I have mixed emotions about every decsion i ever try to make. I wish I could pick apart my life, and only keep the good parts. I dont know sometimes. =/ Makes it feel like I was born at the wrong time, but i'm oh so grateful to be alive. Most of the time stuff really gets to me, like the fact my mom is the reason I can't see my real dad. "we did you a favor"-grandma. NO YOU DIDNT. You destroyed me. I spend 99.9% of the time making me wish I had him in my life. Tomorrow I wanna talk to my mom about going down to see grandma mary and pawpaw rudy. theyre not getting any younger. UGH. This sucks. :l I'm always stuck wondering what life would be like with them. ): Now, i'm depressed. I'm off for the night guys.

~Girl W/ Mixed Emotions. <3

Keep Talking That BLAH BLAH BLAH-Ke$ha.

Hey Girl Hey!,

So lately I've been talking too/seeing this guy named Matt. He's four years older than me :(
But we are trying to figure something out. He is the love I wanna be in. :D Well I g2g, I will deff. explain more. L8ter.

~Tiff.

mhm,

Maybe everyone is right, some things are better left un-said.
I dunno, but I guess you can say i'm clueless on the subject of shutting up, when need be.

So living here, in Orange is pretty good. I like the scenary and the people are wwwaaayyy nicer.

More useless blogging.

(:
So i'm STARVEING! I had a tonsil-ectimy. (I know terrible spelling.)
And its been a tough time recovering. I talk like a chipmonk. -_-
i'm super hungry, cravings are going crazy.
--babyyy, is someone else calling you babyyy? -luke bryan. -hes sexy btw.
So i think right about now i'm gonna attempt to eat some honeybun! :) and drink alittle gatorade.
Before this boy calls back.

until next time.

~tiff

Boys, Boys, Boys.

Sometimes two people are better off as friends. I couldnt understand that, so now him and I dont even talk. I guess I always let jealousy get to me. n_n. I ALWAYS get so jealous. Do they have a class for that? Hmph, they sure should! I always think that my boyfriend is cheating, when there really not. And i admit i do have a deffinite problem with commitment. It gets in my skin and I start to doubt my choices. :/

But on the bright side, I know that I wanna settle down and have a family. I want to meet just ONE guy, who loves me for me and wants the same I do. But at my age, that doesnt happen.
Probably why i'm ALWAYS attracted to older dudes. -_-

I'm also 'talking' to one of my ex's. I've known him since I was in sixth grade, so weve got some history. But he's a crackhead, and not my type, and will NEVER settle down with anyone. So I feel as if i'm kind of wasteing my time. But hey, we will see.

On the oppisite hand, I miss trevor, gah! He will most likely always have a part of me, just because he was the perfect guy. He accepted me, he wanted a family, but I never wanted to make an effort to go see him apparently, but thats not true. -____-. If i would have had a truck, like he did i would have probably made a bigger effort. STUPID ME!

I also been thinking about Hunter, someone ive never dated, but liked for along time. I'm in 8th grade now, and i've liked him since it was the first day of 7th grade. August 22nd, 2008. WOAH! Along time. D: I have no life whatsoever.

Maybe one day this cinderella will find her prince<3.

Until next time,

~Tiff.

GAH! -_-

WOAH!

It has been so long since i've blogged to you guys<3.
Have been having a lot of 'issues'.
-Computer broke.
-Moved.
-Surgery.
GAH! -_- To much to process.

BUT!!

-- I'm back in the game.

I'm officially single, living in Orange, might have a good babysitting job, and a possible boyfriend.

(:

Oh & i want a kid.

I should really just blog off of all of these topics, so ttyiam. :)